For the first time in fifteen years, my shrink would not sign the excuse me out of jury duty papers, for mental illness. He had the audacity to suggest to me that as I was now cured of did. I, me we would have to step up to our civics duty and serve their country. I did it, I served my country. That was a huge lesson in humility to my fat stupid deluded bought off sexygirlself. I was scared to see any violent crime, as I fear it would trigger my mind to fall apart again.