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Feb
11

On Oprah Monday

joyously completing my Tikkuun Olam.  B’H for the opportunity to repent in public for choosing the wrong word when accusing my dad of incest.  I did suffer humiliating abuse from my dad, but there was no sexual intercourse or genital manipulation. I like so many people read the “Courage to Heal” and misinterpreted the words within it to mean that because I had no clear memories and only a vague feeling of possibility, that my feelings were fact enough. 

   Feelings are not fact, and not the same as fact in any way, I know now that I am sane.  I inflicted unbelievable suffering on my family by falsely accusing them of incest in public. 
   I have lost track of reality several times in my life, and been hospitalized for mental health issues several times as well.  At one time, at the lowest and most stressful blackest time in my life, I found myself living in an unhealthy and unhappy environment, and proscribed several psychiatric drugs…mellaril, klonopin, xanax and prozac, which i have sinced learned, is not a good combination of drugs.  During that time, I sang the star spangled banner, accused my father of incest, and imploded mentally. 
 

Comments

  1. freespirit1978 says:

    I think you’re amazing, Roseanne. :) I just wanted to say that. In the back of my mind.. I hope one day, to meet you but I know that most likely won’t become reality! but I can still think about it! LOL When is your new show going to be on?

  2. the whole experience was terrifying on many levels.

  3. As a survivor of child abuse when your beaten and scared out of your witz,does it matter what word is used to descibe your assailant. Am I better off because my father only beat me threw me up against walls literally kicked my ass and told me how ashamed he was of me starting at the age of 1 and my mother let him,but he never sexually assaulted me.

  4. yourstoryisamovie says:

    From a letter written to me by; John Cooper a scientist and the author of two books on
    plastics written years ago as he is ninety-eight, “ I believe firmly that although our physical body,
    which is the space suit needed for our existence on planet Earth, may be no more, the spiritual
    element of us continues to exist.” I like the term you phrased: altering the magic.
    Living in Avalon from 89’ until the completion of this project sometime between
    living aboard a Taiwanese built Lafitte 46
    single mastsailboat named, Kaleolani meaning voices from heaven. Enchant from the wind
    listening through the hollowedbreadth that only saltwater against a wood mass can make –
    the outer world disappeared. By researchingolder books of chemistry belonging to my father
    a chemistry and mathematics professor, along with my degrees in design and film. This book
    is not for sale, it is to finally save our planet from man’s destruction. I just need someone to
    listen.
    He says of my book, “ This topic has challenged the minds of many for thousands of years.
    Prophets, Philosophers, Theologians, Scientists, and legions of others. You have done a commend-
    able job of seeking out many if not all of them.”

  5. yourstoryisamovie says:

    Blazing historic trails and roads across the park, millions of visitors have created viewpoints to the
    seismic eruptions of the caldera since 1823. Reflecting up into the sulfur dioxide plume, standing
    face to face with another adventurer, the best way to envision this occurance in 1866 are in his own
    words, “ it was like gazing at the sun at noonday, except that the glare was not so white. At unequal
    distances all around the shores of the lake were nearly white-hot chimneys or hollow drums of lava,
    four or five feet high, and up through them were bursting gorgeous sprays of lava gouts and gem
    spangles, some white, some red and some golden – a ceaseless bombardment and one that fascinated
    the eye with its unpproachable splender”. Returning from the island, stopping in San Francisco,
    stepping off the city bus at the Cliff House, I entered the gift shop turning over a tee shirt to see,
    “ Ye must come here early in the morn if you want to see this.” – Mark Twain.
    Continuing my travels to Colorado Springs while waiting for a taxi there, in front of my
    cabin was a driver taking a break, by reading a book, ‘Stories by Mark Twain’ Sam believed
    there were alternative realities prophetic in nature were clear visions explained through his
    aparitions of his dreams coming true. Almost precisly a reproduction of his dreams, reality,
    fact and fiction “ In dreams we do make a seamless universe…”
    while not excepting death as an end.

  6. yourstoryisamovie says:

    When my father passed away, my brother informed us that we would receive $44,000.
    There is a force, it is definitely a passionate yearning that takes over me, first it is the love of the
    Hawaiian Islands, second; volcanoes. By way of the internet and through pictures, I found a forth
    of an acre with two unpermitted structures and an ocean view for $44,000, on the Big Island Hawaii.
    A pure jungle of mango trees, banana, pineapple, macadamia, the flora as; lily pads and plumeria.
    After turning over one photo, labeled ancient rock wall, I knew it was right for me and was lucky to
    own it. It is located in the Mark Twain Estates in Wai’o’hinu where just off the highway he planted
    a monkey pod tree, still there today for you to touch and see. Finally on to the Jaggar Museum,
    this region has been settled by the natives living as well as worshiping since the early 15th century.

  7. Rosanne if you read this note could you please tell me what lipstick you wore on Oprah it is so pretty. You look fab and I am so happy you love life in Hawaii

  8. I just hope you forgive your self because I can amagine the pain knowing the hurt it caused your parents But you where not well and I really think Tom arnold was behind aklot of it he was a sick puppy you where just having a fase and he fed into it used it played you for it and thought it would bring greater fame.If iM wrong im sorry.But Rosie look what became of you I mean if I where you i wouwld look at myself and say look what blessing being me has brought me.The fact you found it a universe where many just cant seem to excaPE there hell.Just like myself i have a great since of humor but because by nature im very serous when i get around it then it comes out infact I wrote a few scits and I think i have them on my old computer floppies I think you would find them funny one was when i was insterups and geting a sisosocpy wher they stick a tube in your wee but iut was funny ill try and find it as every one enjoys a good laugh.Rosie im not trying to flatter you but I have great insight and I feel you have a luving kind spirt a great ora and you had mancic ilness i have that too and often we even missundrstand ourselfs.Your peace is here I think the dispare is all behind you hopefully this new guy is after nothing but companionship and a nice life.I know you need to be luved or you would have given up by now so dam dont settle for nothing else.Iv been used alot in my life when all I wanted was to be luved & cared for and each time was a learning that we wont settle for abuse no more.hehhe lol take care for now,Richard..

  9. Ladyjane Green says:

    WORD!

  10. i’d just like to add something to your thoughts Roseanne.
    Most people in our society, would love to have fame and fortune, and there’s nothing wrong for wanting success as measured by our culture today.
    Not many of us think about what it’s like to have to expose your most personal issues as a human being—with the whole world…..
    and you do, have to. The media loves dirty laundry. I think it must be unbearable to know that the media (speaker box to the world) waits for you to do something or say something “unbecoming”…… (like a jealous sister who blurts out secrets)
    and then your life, children’s lives and anyone who becomes close to you, is subject to whimsical critical review that the public feels the right to weigh in on, smacking of Roman style “colosseum entertainment.”
    I think it was “Saintly” to admit anything “publicly” that is personal to your heart, especially when it comes to the all and powerful subject of sex…
    and sex really is at the forefront and background of our reality…….
    Bravo Roseanne.

  11. it’s in my book–

  12. It seems there’s some confusion about you recanting the incest. If you feel it wasn’t incest, it would be helpful to a lot of people who were sexually abused, what made you change your mind, and explain what your father did to/with you?

  13. MATTHEW RANKIN says:

    When I watched the Oprah taping with Roseanne, the part about the abuse with her father, and not knowing what to call it, and people taking things like this never happen or that. I know how that feels, I know growing up having thoughts, and memories of abuse, and not knowing what to call it, you know this happen the thoughts are there, and it is not a mental thing, and people need to stop calling it that. Call it abuse for what it is. I know that dark place and felt like I was alone and they can be many people around you. But Roseanne I want to thank you for you being you, and bringing realness all the way everyday. You bless my heart..

  14. you inspire me.

  15. you inspire me.

  16. I had been with out a computer for a while so I had no clue you had a book out. I saw the ad last week you where going to be on Oprah and I could hardly wait. I went to read reviews on your book tonight and figured out you had a blog so I went searching. I want you to know that I think you have so much talent and I love that you are so vocal with your true feelings. Your sho meant so much to me growing up. It was so much closer to real life than all the fairy tale shows that tried to make us beleive that was the way it was. yOu delt with so many issues that I needed help dealing with myself. As soon as I can afford it I willbe buying your book. I hadto chime in on your review because some idot pissed me off sorry about that. BUt I will post an honest review as soon as I read it. HUGS

  17. I’m not a fan of professing my love for stars or strangers, but I do absolutely adore you and send you nothing but love and warm thoughts. I thoroughly enjoyed the interview on Oprah – but more importantly, finally had a moment of peace for myself. Upon hearing you describe the misuse of the word incest, I felt relief. Relief that someone can recover, forgive, be forgiven, and move into a place that you so eloquently described as contentment. My own experience of humiliation, degradation, physical abuse, was inaccurately described by me too. For years I wondered, would I be that type of parent? Would I be punished for misunderstanding and for not clarifying? So much so, I waited until late in life to become parent. You give me hope that I will find contentment too. I am just now realizing that each person remembers the past differently, and my parents will never agree with me about situations, but the lesson is that I don’t ‘need’ them to agree – I just needed to be heard and I needed to be fair about it. Which sounds crazy – but I think if you lived it, it would make sense.
    Thank You …Thank You for always being so honest, for always being willing to take off the bandages and show the wounds. Thank you for always living in the moment and being brave – Thank you-

  18. Excellent interview. Refreshing, as always. I wonder if the sentiment you’re getting at, and the word you’re looking for, is “violated”? I haven’t read your book (yet), but this what I sensed when you mentioned the relationship with your father and said that “incest” isn’t the right word. Being violated on any level (your trust, your body, your spirit) is damaging to a child.

  19. Loved your appearance on Oprah today and I am so happy for you and your family. The farm looks like a great beginning to every morning of life. Really want to say it was very inspiring to hear you say and repeat ” I lived through it” there are so many people I’m sure you touched with that testimony. And for me that’s exactly what it was…no matter what we go through, the highs & lows we can all make it. Can’t wait to read the book, keep inspiring us all through the love & truth you have to offer the world. Peace & Blessings

  20. Happy Valentine’s Day Everyone……

  21. Well I just watched Oprah and You look simply terrific….the show was great….wow you have been through a lot. Happy farming…..Rudi

  22. Regarding the Star Spangled Banner; I find much, MUCH that is hypocritical in most Americans when this song is played; talking, no hand over the heart, looking away from the flag, taking sips of their beer, asking the hot dog vendor for another hot dog, etc., Although it is a anthem….we take too seriously things in this country that are often self imposed.
    Anger should be reserved for more important things like war, treatment of women and children in this country and abroad, unsafe drinking water, filthy air, and taxes. I often think many Americans are typically the sheep the government wants them to be; worrying about the small stuff while the much bigger picture not seen due to the small stuff has the greatest effect on our freedoms, our ability to support our children, keep our homes, etc.,
    I found Roseanne’s version a welcome much needed comical diversion and nothing more. Thank you for the laughter……

  23. Regarding the Star Spangled Banner; I find much, MUCH that is hypocritical in most Americans when this song is played; talking, no hand over the heart, looking away from the flag, taking sips of their beer, asking the hot dog vendor for another hot dog, etc., Although it is a anthem….we take too seriously things in this country that are often self imposed.
    Anger should be reserved for more important things like war, treatment of women and children in this country and abroad, unsafe drinking water, filthy air, and taxes. I often think many Americans are typically the sheep the government wants them to be; worrying about the small stuff while the much bigger picture not seen due to the small stuff has the greatest effect on our freedoms, our ability to support our children, keep our homes, etc.,
    I found Roseanne’s version a welcome much needed comical diversion and nothing more. Thank you for the laughter……

  24. I just wanted to say that I saw you on Oprah today and I just love you! I went through a really hard time a couple of years ago with an anxiety breakdown… worst thing I think I’ve been through in my life. I found comfort and calmness by watching “Roseanne”. I have the dvd collections and I would watch them for hours just to feel calm and relaxed. So thank you for being my savior at a time I needed it most.

  25. Oh, Roseanne, I have missed you!! It was wonderful to see you on Oprah. And, you look wonderful lady. You look content and happy. Your life partner seems to be a wonderful gentle spirit, I am so happy for you.
    I applaud you for your strength and fighting for yourself. It takes a very brave person to admit wrong doing and mistakes. I hope that you believe what we all say and I hope that you can see you through our eyes. Much love to you and your family!!

  26. Watching Oprah, OMG! Too damn funny!

  27. Can’t wait to watch it after work tonight. Your honesty vulnerability, and openness are so rare. And admired. Mahalo.

  28. Watching you on Oprah….i think you are a great person love your honest personality .. And you look great !!

  29. I just finished watching you on Oprah and I have to say it was wonderful. When you spoke about your father I could see the love while fighting back the tears. I think you did a wonderful job explianing that while he was not a perfect man he was your father and you still respect and love him. I believe that when we die we gain complete and total understanding of all things with no ego left to cloud anything. I am sure he is watching you with pride and all the knowlege of why things happened the way they did. Bravo!!!

  30. Im hoping for a rematch for your arm wrestling for charity with Oprah, Roseanne lol.

  31. I think you may be a little hard in yourself. I volunteer at my local center against sexual assault and I believe that anything that makes you uncomfortable falls into that catagory. As women we all know when someone is looking at us in a sexual way and that is not okay. I clearly have no idea about what went on in your family. I just wanted to say that nobody can help how they feel and if they are feeling uncomfortable they should not ignore it. In fact we have to trust those feelings as instinct to keep us from danger. Feelings can turn to fact in the blink of an eye.

  32. I won’t miss this!!!

  33. OUTRAGEOUS, CONTROVERSIAL ROSEANNE BARR RETURNS TO THE OPRAH SHOW
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